So Totally Indecisive

I am one of the many people that lay in bed at night and think about anything and everything there is to think about until I fall asleep. I think about things like what the heck am I going to wear tomorrow, and who came up with the word doodle, and why is an orange named after its color. But recently my thoughts have been more serious. As some of you may already know, I am a senior in high school this year, and what are seniors’ focus? COLLEGE. Usually whenever deciding upon a college, your first thought is what in tarnation do I even want to do for the rest of my life?

Remember being asked as a kid what you want to be whenever you grow up? Our answers back then were pretty simple. I want to be a veterinarian, or I want to be a princess.. that was usually always my answer. But now if someone asked you that, a lot of us wouldn’t know what to say. Whoever can answer that question without even giving it a single thought because you’ve always known exactly what you want to do, bless your soul. Because I have been so indecisive!

It can sometimes be scary to be making these types of decisions at such a young age. But the reality of it is that we aren’t all that young anymore. Eighteen is the legal age of adulthood. Once you go to college, that is the start of a completely new chapter in your life. You are starting YOUR life. SO CRAZY TO THINK ABOUT! I don’t want to give off the vibe that college is terrifying and that the real world completely sucks, because it’s actually super exciting to be starting something new like creating your future!

So here is all of the thoughts that danced around inside of my head. Psychology, that was my decided major. One tiny problem.. It. Is. So. Broad. Anytime I would think about my major and do any type of research on psychology I would get very overwhelmed because new things would pop up each time. So I was always discovering new things I could narrow it down to. The problem was actually deciding for sure what I wanted to narrow it down to. “Ooh, I like that one!” or “No no, I like that one!”. See my problem? Everything was so uncertain and undecided. I have no idea what I would do with my psychology major.

My thoughts then began to travel elsewhere. I’ve crossed paths with the thought of being an elementary teacher. I know that being that people person that I am I would need a career that gave me the opportunity to be able to form relationships with people and use my personality to the best of my ability. I love kids, and I love the “nurturing feeling” of being able to talk with them and form relationships with them. Becoming a teacher is not something that is overwhelming and makes my brain swell whenever I think about it. It’s very simple. Not simple as in “its so easy to be a teacher”. But simple as in, it isn’t so broad to the point where I have no idea where to begin.

My next step is to continue to pray about it. I want to follow God’s plan for me, and glorify him with everything that I do. I hope that he leads me in the direction that I need to go. And I know that he will, because he always does! Trusting him is not always easy, but that’s what makes him so great, whenever he surprises us with the unexpected.

Acceptance

So after a long and treacherous journey through the dark and cold world of “I have writer’s block” I have finally rejoined the living and have regained the brain power I need to write again!

After picking at my brain and wondering what the heck is an interesting topic to discuss I finally decided to look inwardly and I realized that there is something that everyone needs to hear every once in a while. With that being said, I titled this “Acceptance” because my dear friends, we all need to learn how to accept and love ourselves. I am a Christian and my belief is that God made each and every one of us in a specific way, a very particular and unique way, and it makes him upset whenever we diminish ourselves and put ourselves down. Because he sees us as a perfect masterpiece. He does not mess up. Ever. I mean lets be honest here, wouldn’t you be pretty upset if someone dissed your artwork? Like, um, excuse me? That picture I drew of that beautiful butterfly with my 64 pack of crayons is pretty fantastic, thank you very much. What I’m trying to get at here is that God is proud of his artwork and his creations, so shouldn’t we be?

The world we live in today is extremely critical. Some examples I’m sure everyone is aware of are, what you wear, what size pants you are, how long your hair is, what kind of car you drive, how big your house is, how tan your skin is, how great of an athlete you are, blah blah blah. The list can go on and on, but you get the point. There’s so many expectations to uphold, am I right? Just say it, I’m right.

But I am here to tell you this.. STOP COMPARING YOURSELF. This is most definitely something that I personally struggle with from time to time, and to be quite honest, I get angry with myself because I am reminded every single time of how wonderfully made I was and that I was not put on this earth to please others or to conform to this world and look the expected part. I was placed here to grow in my own way and to become the person that God intended me to be, which is completely myself.

Girls: Quit looking at other female’s pictures on Instagram and wishing that you had her hair, her skin, her clothes, etc. Instead, appreciate the fact that you are you and that’s more than okay. Because sometimes although she may be beautiful, it doesn’t matter. This may be extremely cheesy, like complete cheddar cheesy, but its what’s on the inside that counts. If your personality is as dry as the Sahara then your pretty face means nothing. So be beautiful on the inside and that will shine through on the outside! Don’t be a diva and boastful about your looks, because that will either, A: make others feel inferior, B: make other’s want to punch you in the esophagus, or C: all of the above.

Guys: Ahh yes, the stereotypical “every guy wants to look like Dwanye Johnson AKA The Rock”. Not every guy’s dream is to play college football or the NFL, but most guys want to come off as Hardy McHardypants thinking that it will prove something to the world around them. Sorry to burst that bubble of yours that is completely filled with testosterone but you don’t have anything to prove to anybody. Like I mentioned to the girls, it doesn’t matter if you’re 6 foot 7 with biceps the size of a cat, or if you can slam dunk a basketball, or if you can eat the most hot dogs. Wiener champion of 2015.. yeah that’ll really get the ladies. No seriously, please tell any girl that, they will date you. Just kidding don’t do that. Back to what I was saying, all those things are great. It’s great to be fit and to be good at sports, but if you’re arrogant about it then it means nothing. Being humble is important. What you are on the inside is what will reflect outwardly. If you decide you want to be a jerk and rub your achievements in people’s faces, then people will only see you as a jerk. But if you decide to be humble about your achievements then people will see you as someone to look up to. Who cares if being a nice guy isn’t living up to the expectations of “cool”, that’s not what you were made for. You were made to be who God created you to be, and to accept that and love yourself.

I hope this read was somewhat insightful and beneficial to all who stumbled upon it! ACCEPT YOURSELF AND LOVE WHO YOU ARE! 🙂

Survival Of The Fittest

High school is like a season of Survivor. I might be exaggerating somewhat and being slightly dramatic, but hey lets be real, high school is a tough place. The four years you spend in high school are the four years you spend discovering yourself, who you are, and who you’re working towards being.

Everyone takes their turn at the bottom of the food chain. Yes, the lovely freshmen status. Freshman year is all about first experiences. Obviously, your first day as a high school student, your first date, first real relationship, first formal dance, first time playing on the field Friday night at a football game as a varsity player, first kiss maybe. There are so many “firsts” for everyone. Maybe one of those fit how your freshman year was, or maybe not. But there are so many new things to experience as a freshman. Unfortunately, not all experiences are good. Sometimes we make stupid choices that lead us down the wrong path. Sometimes we choose the wrong friend group and end up doing things we shouldn’t. For me, it was the opposite actually. I distanced myself from some of the friends I had in middle school. My freshman year was more about a FRESH start for me. See what I did there? It wasn’t always easy, I went through a lot of torment because I was becoming a completely different person (for the better) than what everyone had become used to seeing.

Then next comes sophomore year. Finally, you can say that you ARE NOT a freshman anymore. Usually sophomore year is the year to hustle the freshman because it feels so darn good not to be one anymore! Just kidding, do not bully the freshmen in your school! Sophomore year is the year you stress about taking and also passing your OGT’s, or whatever graduation requiring test your school has. They prepare you all year for the material that you’ll see on your tests. They are not as bad as everyone thinks they are, imagine that. You’d really have to try hard in order to fail. You would purposely have to try to fail in order to actually fail.

Then comes junior year, the year you finally become an upper class man. Congrats, you’re officially not lame. Its time to start thinking about college and what you may want to do when you get there. Where do I want to visit? What could my possible major be? Do I even want to go to college? These are all questions that junior year has you thinking about. Junior year gives you the opportunity to begin taking some college courses. These give you college credits which is stinking awesome because that’s a few less classes you have to take in college. HOLLA!

It’s the moment you’ve all been waiting for.. SENIOR RAH SENIOR RAH, RAH RAH SENIORS! You did it, you are finally at the top of the food chain! As I myself enter my senior year this year, I will discover what it is to be a senior. Senior year is all about making those final decisions as to where you want to go to college and what you’d like to study. Senior year (so I’ve heard) can be a bit overwhelming at times because your future is super important. And I mean who doesn’t want to be successful? I don’t think I’ve ever woke up in the morning and thought to myself “Ehh, I’ll just be a homeless person. Who needs an education?”. NO NO NO. If you have had that thought, stop it! Enjoy your last year as a teenager, because once you turn 18 and you go off to college, you begin an entirely new chapter in your life. You begin YOUR life, as an adult. It’s scary to think about sometimes, but also SO EXCITING!

I hope you enjoyed reading my second blog! I also hope it wasn’t entirely too cheesy, if it was, then my sincerest apologies. Keep on keeping on humans! 🙂

Introductions From A New Blogger

Hey there! My name is Kaitlyn and this is my first ever post as a blogger! Exciting right? No applause necessary. After hearing about blogs and researching other blogs, I decided that after my two best friends made their own blogs that it sounded pretty cool.

I’m aware that some blogs have specific topics, like writing reviews on books, or discussing the topic of traveling like my dear friend Olivia has created her blog for, etc. But I have decided to make my blog, as described, miscellaneous! I am a gal that likes to discuss many different things and I find myself to be a very opinionated person. Therefore I think that keeping my blogs broad would be best for me.

I think introductions about myself are in order here. I’m a senior at Carrollton High School, Carrollton, Ohio that is. I plan to be a psychology criminology major, and I am currently visiting multiple colleges. I’m a pretty busy person, I’m a cheerleader, I am in the Chamber Chorus at our school, I have a job, I attend church regularly at Faith Family in Canton, Ohio, and I sing in a praise band at my own church. Whenever I am not out and about, I spend a lot of my free time reading and I also enjoy Netflix! I mean come on, who doesn’t like watching shows like Gossip Girl or Pretty Little Liars? I do not narrow my reading to any specific genre, what would be the fun in that? I like anything from romance novels to gory action filled novels. I am an avid cat lover, so my apologies to anyone who dislikes cats. I have a wonderful and handsome boyfriend of three years named Joshua who will be attending West Virginia University in the fall for petroleum engineering. He’s super smart, I hate him for it. I have two older sisters named Carey and Jennifer and two lovely but weird parents that I like to call mom and dad.

Favorite book/movie series you ask? I have multiple thanks for asking! Harry Potter OF COURSE, The Maze Runner series, the Divergent series, The Hunger Games, and the Delirium trilogy. They are all amazingly detailed and thoroughly thought out books if you’re looking for a good read and something to fall in love with. CAUTION: you will be affected in every emotional way possible.

I really hope that you enjoyed my first blog! Any tips on how to be a better writer/blogger are greatly appreciated. You should definitely follow me! I also have a twitter and an Instagram account as well.

Twitter: @KaitlynBudinsky

Instagram: @kait_budinskkkk